Kendall here…I haven’t been on here for awhile as I seemingly find my preoccupied with either catching up on The Profiler or reading books or more like buying more books that I have no time to read. That little part of manic has turned into a book free-for-all and I am really trying to stop…I caught myself at work looking to order two more books. WTF. I know I am not invisible and yet here I go spending money I don’t have. I really want to use my rebate check to get me a spinner bike but I have 11,000 left to pay on my credit cards! I need to run into a freaking leprechaun so that I can find a second windfall. I know I should focus on writing but I don’t trust myself to keep going on something I start…hell I don’t even know if I can write or if I have a story to tell. Well i am going to go.
Too early
June 6, 2008 at 12:07 pm (Ramblings)
Tags: caffeine, sleep
It’s 5:00am. I’m up. Never was ‘down.’ I laid in bed for five hours and finally gave up. I have to get moving in two hours. I could lay there for another 1 1/2 hours or I could get up and check my email. Serfing won!
Let’s hope caffeine can keep me going today.
~Charlotte
Charlotte continues
June 5, 2008 at 4:51 am (Ramblings)
Tags: hopeful
I had a better day today. I actually accomplished a couple of things. Feels good. Felt good to want to do them. Felt good to do them. Feels good to have done them.
Let’s hope I can continue an upward trend.
I had an interesting experience this evening. Went to a meeting I haven’t attended in awhile. Talked to an acquaintance there. She had NO IDEA anything we’ve been going through. Don’t know if it’s good that there’s not gossip. Or bad because they just don’t care enough to mention our situation. More things to ponder.
In the meantime, I am having moments of hopefulness about the future. And today is a special day because it’s 13 years since my husband first asked me out.
Charlotte start
June 3, 2008 at 9:15 pm (Ramblings)
Tags: regrets
I have regrets.
They’re futile regrets, because I actually had no control.
Can you regret something you couldn’t control? Can you regret the actions of others?
