Absolute-you can NEVER make people happy so stop yourself from hurling into that brick wall that hastily built in front of you. Today was a tough one as I sat in my doctor’s office and really tried to get at why I truly Hate myself. That in itself is hard to do let alone to do it in 45 minutes. I cried, I mumbled, I relived, and yet even though she said I was making sense to her…nothing she said really helped. Was I taken advantage of? Yes! Had I been wrongfully touched? Yes! Had I equated sex for love? Yes! Do I have trust issues? HELL YES! Have I ever like who I am? NO!
Then I get to work and slammed right into a wall…the wall of perpetual stupidity. I am never going to get this raise so my mind is starting to shut down. I could be working a lot harder but the digital readout in front of my eyes keeps repeating…things will never change….forget about it….
Needless to say after working a mere 5.75 hours I am completely wiped so I am going to lay my head down and try and get some sleep…to bad no one is here to apply pressure on that kinky point in my back.
Kendall
