So my there is this woman who is like a second mother to me (one that is a total opposite of my mom) and she finally returned one of my calls today to tell me that last month her kidneys went out! WTF. And I am just hearing about this now?! I know I suck at keeping in contact with people when it comes to talking to them once I get off of work…I mean I answer the phones all damn day long at work so I don’t really want to be on one when I get home. Okay so here is my fear…that she will die and I won’t be told or that she dies and I have not gone out to see her before. I could book a flight and show up at her house on Saturday but I don’t want to intrude since she is really tired…ie weak right now. I honestly don’t know what I would do if something bad happened to her…not that her kidneys going out wasn’t bad enough. I was so hoping she would have been approved for a transplant…and I was supposed to hear from her on that like in December…and yet I am just now hearing from her.
She lets me be me and talks to me straight while actually listening to me. My grandmother once accused me of loving her more than my mom…which is so not true. It is just with her that I can be me…screwed up, schitzophrenic me. I honestly on count five people as my family and she is the fifth.
I am sitting here on the brink of tears. Damn it.
Kendall
