So when I read online today that Angelina is having twins…the words “that bitch” came to mind and mouth. I am so jealous…not that she is having Pitt’s baby because personally I think there are far finer men out there but because she is having kids. I want kids…I know that I will never have them…okay maybe I should say that I don’t think I will ever have them and that kills me. I mean right now I can’t really take care of myself. My doctor wants me to work on my social skills…to which I retorted “what skills?” I am much more comfortable watching from the corner. It is more fun to see people react to each other and study their body language to see how they hide things.
As for work…I ain’t doing anything…my focus is so easily shifted. I would say that I am looking for escapism but I think some of it is the thrill of maybe getting caught…not that I want to lose my job…it is like I see myself doing something wrong but I am so damn numb I don’t fight it.
Kendall
