I’ve been having vivid dreams. Not sure if it’s the Lexapro or just life, but I’ve been having really vivid dreams. Some are just wild, but others are significant. Perhaps my subconscious working out how I feel about some things?
There are two that stand out to me. In the first, my hair is cut into a man’s haircut. I even have a beard. It’s me. But me groomed as a man. N has been cutting my hair and doing a great job. He’s cutting my hair, but I ask him to please shave the beard. “I don’t want it anymore. The haircut is okay, but please shave the beard.”
The second dream came last night. I was in a building at night. Although it did not resemble the ‘real life’ place, I knew what it was. I heard a man saying, “Is someone still in here? I was about to lock up.” This was a man I know, an authority figure ‘T’. He offered to walk me out. As we were about to leave, we could see through the glassed in front area a truck pull up. Dangerous looking men piled out of it and headed toward the door. T locked the door, but they came in through another entrance close by. The dangerous men told us we could leave. T walked through the door, but as I tried to exit they blocked the exit and locked me in. T looked back at me as I screamed in terror, then proceeded to walk away. I was raped. Survived only because I fought back myself. I woke up more upset about the feeling of abandonment than being attacked.
I have a pretty good idea what these dreams represent, but I wouldn’t mind feedback before I go into what I think they mean.
Signed, Charlotte
