This is Kendall. I wanted to share a little info with you. I am in my early thirties, can’t decide on what color my hair should be, have good moments, really rough hours, and love to laugh. I love Eddie Izzard, Jeff Dunham, and Catherine Tate. I love music…can’t really pick the best band ever…but right now I am listening to The Birthday Massacre A LOT.
With regards to me being bipolar…well hell that is a long story. I have been dealing with these “issues” for as long as I can remember. I have been told that I was depressed, had borderline personality disorder, slightly schitzo, with pyschotic tendancies, the inability to spell, and been told that yes, I really am bipolar…and not only bipolar but bipolar 1…yites. But believe it or not I was happy when one doctor finally told me that. It was like everything crazy in my life clicked. My current doctor did not totally believe the other’s diagonisis and for a while tried to treat me for just borderline personality disorder but boy when I went manic…she up and changed her mind. Of course by that time I had already dug myself a great big hole of debt and now I am trying desperately to stay above the surface.
So I decided to do this blog…why? I wanted a place to be honest…brutally honest about what it is like to hear things from family, friends, deal with people at work, and listen to other’s ideas about what bipolar is.
My biggest irritation with regards to bipolar is how some people look at how someone is acting and go “he has to be bipolar!” WTF? Are they friggen doctors? Hell, my doctor thought it was something else at first…this crap is not easy to label folks! Just because a woman, who is bipolar, drives her kids into a lake does not mean that I will! Just because you saw someone on tv talk about their bout with bipolar does not mean you know when I am having a manic phase or like my mom says “in one of my moods.” This is a mean and sometimes very dibilitating illness but sometimes there are pleasures to be had here.
Well, that is my rant for the night.
